The Universe Provides

Have you ever felt you were just hitting walls wherever you went? Even thought what do I have to change in order to feel better? Or think that your world is closing in on you? A couple of months back I did exactly that asked in my prayer/meditation to be given new tools to meet the world with. And was gifted exactly that- new tools and ways to be in the world.

A coach/mentor who I worked with about 5 years ago called me up about 2 days after I put the intention out there. She offered me as a gift a week of training with Christopher Howard Trainings. She said to me, “Would you be interested in doing a course called – Design Your Destiny?” With no hesitation I said, “of course that sounds perfect.” With gratitude I was so happy I was open to the universe answering my request. A week later she emailed asking if I wanted to do another course and I said – “Yes!”(Yes has become the place I live from) Almost 2 weeks ago I did the week of training called Performance Revolution and Design Your Destiny. They were both life changing and cracked open the shell I was living in.

Words do little to describe my experience and it shifted my world. There is no going back now the new patterns are set. In the training I was put up against myself and the many mirrors in the room who reflected back to me the many parts of myself. (I know you all can relate to this one as you look around at the people in your life) One of the greatest teachings I got was that we want to change the mirrors often but really its us who have to do the changing. It was more clear than ever as I chose to shift into a new paradigm.

We did exercises in groups, one on one and asked hard questions of what we believe in. To my surprise I was playing smaller than I could.(this goes for most of us) And we never really know we are. When I shifted parts of myself I was knew I was headed in a new direction with a new perspective ingrained in my being.

Another was huge for me (even as a yoga teacher). Most of us are Do-Have-Be in our lives and then run out of time. Contemplate Be-Do-Have and see where you can shift in your life. This past week I shifted to be more in myself and with those I love and from that have more clarity of my purpose. (I was not allowing myself to do this and it was hurting me)

Speaking about purpose at Design Your Destiny we did exercises that helped to also discover/uncover  your mission, vision and legacy. This is the first time I stretched myself in this way it was incredibly uncomfortable and comforting at the same time. And I will share with you my purpose – is to Create, Teach & Inspire. (I cried when I found it and enjoyed the reconnection to my heart)

After my story (that held me back) was shifted I knew that there was more to my being here on this planet and even more will be revealed in the weeks, months and year to come. I was able to see real beauty in myself and all those who were in the week long program. We shed our limited beliefs even if it hurt to uncover our authentic state of being.

Take some time to reflect on how you feel after reading this and let me know your thoughts.

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Slowing Down (for real)

Everything around me is pointing to my slowing down. This has been a long time coming and it became clear to me when I was rear ended by a drunk driver a few weeks ago. This was followed by my email list being frozen (and it’s not any more), canceling my tele-class other situations that were put on hold. At the same time I was being supported by friends, coaches, teachers and clients to receive.

After my accident I had to stop and heal. (my body was in shock) I kept asking the question -  Who is it I am being called to be?. This question kept popping up and I could not get away from it and just turned to it. I see that the end of 2009 is giving me the opportunity to be this person who I am being called to be. Slowing down, for real meaning not pushing the answer and allowing it to unfold from within. (does this sound like something you want)

Meditation was challenging after my accident but I did take time to do a wonderful workshop with my friend, teacher and breath coach – Julia Mkk. This weekend release my trauma, anxiety and worry. I felt better and was in a place of being ME.

After that workshop I re-connected to my sacred routine and added some breathwork to it. Every morning I do yoga, breath of love and then meditate all keeping with soft silence this keeps me grounded in my self.

Having this as my morning ritual gives me the glue to reset my pace of moving in the world. I am grateful that I was given this opportunity to reset how I am moving in the world so I can enjoy more of who I am every day which in turn helps me connect to those in my life.

Do you have a morning ritual? Do you jump out of bed into the world and then get stressed? Take notice of how you can slow down, create a morning ritual and add in a second meditation to reconnect to yourself.

If you are seeking assistance with this please join me this week with Kelly Connors on Real Women on Health - Thurs Oct. 8th @ 4:30 PST/ 7:30 EST. You will be able to join in the call with your questions.

Overcome Your Feelings of Defeat

Have you ever felt you have done everything you can but you feel like your being pushed down? This happens to all of us at some point and here is an important reminder – You Are Not Alone. We all have days we’re not feeling great this is the time to be, reflect and grow. (then it’s not so bad)

I want to share with you a story that I found inspiring in overcoming a (possible) defeat.  A student/client shared with me that she was afraid to go out and spend time with her daughter. She often feels defeated by her health condition (Multiple Sclerosis) and it seems to get the best of her some times.  Her daughter wanted to spend some time with her but she was afraid she couldn’t do it. She told me that she thinks she walks funny and was afraid of going for some other reasons as well. Her criticizing herself brought her to a place of suffering. (we can talk ourselves into anything) She felt trapped and defeated and was almost taken over by her fear. I told her to go even though she had a list of reasons not to go.

The great news is that her daughter supported her to come along in spite of her excuses and she actually went with her. When I heard the news, I could feel all the emotions and knew she broke through an obstacle that has held her back from enjoying her life. They had a great time and her daughter even said sthat she was proud of her for coming with her. A huge triumph  – she overcame feeling bad about herself by doing it anyway.(we can all learn by this amazing example of human spirit)

When we feel like something is against us we may ignore it, get worked up about it, give up or if we have the courage and strength we push through it.  In the moment when my client took the step forward a new world opened up – Joy was felt. She had a breakthrough instead of a breakdown! The key ingredient was her listening to the support that cheered her along instead of the voice in her head. She broke free from the negative critic in her head – a step never to be forgotten.

Here are some questions You can ask when you are feeling down or like there is nowhere else to go. When else have I felt this way?  What was around the corner to be revealed? Could this breakdown be a breakthrough? When in this place take the time to ask, listen and then write it out to discover what is wanting to emerge from You.

If You are seeking support and have specific questions to overcome a place of defeat with your health challenges, life problems or obstacles then join me on my next FREE teleseminar. (we have them once a month and the next one is the last wed of Sept)

Are Your Grateful For What You Have?

This morning I was meditating and my sweet dog woke up and then went back into her bed. After my meditation I moved about and she took this as a que to get out of bed. She went over to the screen door and slipped her head between the blinds and just waited for me to slide it open. She stood there for about five minutes enjoying the sun through the screen but wanted to be outside.

I watched her and thought about how sometimes in my life and meditation practice I feel I have met not just a door but a screen door and forget to enjoy what I am experiencing. Today I was reminded to enjoy it for what is there and know that with patience the door will open.

Today, I was the grace for my dog as she is does not know how to open the screen door even though I tried to show her and it didn’t work. But she waits patiently enjoying what she has every time its amazing to observe. (a wise practice) Too much effort would be her pushing through the door and breaking it. A doggy door would allow her to go in and out. Or I take the role to open it for her and enjoy my part in her pleasure which I enjoy but the doggy door would be best. We always have choices but are not always aware of them and can choose to take joy in what we do have.

How are you doing with the doors that are in Your way? Are you able to creatively open to see the choices you have? Are you able to be grateful for what you have and be open for more blessings? We all have choices and more so than a dog that is limited for obvious reasons and more free for other reasons. Today see where you can be grace and help someone else out and move that door for them knowing it may be temporary but it will open to provide some pleasure and joy.

Set aside some  time this weekend (5-20 min) to see what you have created to be a door that may be keeping you from your joy, love and beauty. Slide open the door, step inside and take a moment to meditate and just be with yourself. If you are newer to meditation or would like some assistance you can get a free download from my website when you sign up for my newsletter.

Boundaries Deepen Intimacy

This past weekend I went back to my hometown to go through my childhood belongings. It has been years that I have been there.  Over the few days I had there I went on a journey inside of my mind and heart.  I walked down memory lane reading old journals, looking through pictures, my artwork and other stuff.  A friend suggested I burn sage around everything and this was a great help to release and let go. I ended up donating most of it and throwing the rest away keeping about 1% and lightening my load. In the past my tendency was to do too much. I would try to see everybody and throw my energy all over the place forgetting why I went there in the first place.  To help me in my process I set an intention – to make peace with my past and a specific part of it. This intention became my boundary that helped me take care of myself in a way I never have before. I discovered a deep intimacy with myself by doing this that words cannot describe. When we talk about boundaries most of us think of other people’s boundaries but for me it includes our personal boundaries, which make a world of difference. This time I stood strong with my promise and was able to flow without explaining myself and honoring myself instead. Each step along the way opened me to a deeper sense of intimacy to my friends, husband and self. There were a few moments of high awkwardness that I was called to be even more sensitive and by taking the moment to breathe and listen it unfolded perfectly. I’ve made peace with this part of my life and know that the ties are cut and am more free than ever to honor myself and those around me.

Boundaries make life and relationships more intimate. Honor yours and those around you!

A few tips to help on your path:

1. Set intentions  in your relationships with yourself and others especially when you are moving into states of awkwardness.

2. Listen and observe body language as well as the voice of others when you are interacting. Emails & Texts are tricky!!!!!  (many do the opposite of what they say)

3. Check in to see if you are you wanting to please others and disregarding your personal boundaries?

4. Be honest, let those around you understand where you are and let them know its not personal. (reading the four agreements will help here)

5. When you are upset by someone who is not honoring you, see where you are not honoring yourself.

This month we have a Free Teleseminar on Breaking Through Your Obstacles... More info (you get to design the call)

Leave your questions or comments they make the conversation even more interesting.

*Delay is Not Denial

As you may know I have been working on my health, business, relationships and basically my life. There are many aspects I am working on and sometimes I get frustrated and just want to kick the wall. Yes, yoga, meditation or even taking a hike in nature will shift but in the moment that I come to a door that seems to not open I sometimes want to just give up.

The good news is that some doors are opening (I will  share with You soon) and I can see that “*delay is not denial” which is an amazing teaching. If you are anything like me you want results and quickly but that is not always the case. For each of us it will look, feel and be different in all areas of life.

Recently, I have been working with a new Acupuncturist & Chinese Doctor and had to change everything. My first reaction was to resist then I softened and once I did the door opened for both of us to work together. I had a test that showed me that some areas of my digestion was not so good. I was unhappy and felt I have failed… but I did not it just is yet another step. In this test I also learned I am gluten intolerant which made me see that there is a direct connection to what has been dis-ease in my body. New adjustments and there is a flow.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you that I went to this new doctor because I want to start to prepare for children.  And I came to another delay – she said I had to wait a year if I wanted to have the best situation for the baby. I wanted to start in 6 months but as I shared with you I am holding the teaching that I learned from Dr. Michael Beckwith – “*delay is not denial.”

A few steps to help You!

1. Watch when you think the flow is not in your favor

2. Then take a moment to watch the opportunity to shift and prepare for the next step

3. Be grateful for the delay and open to what is ready to flow in its coming!!!

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* Thank you Dr. Michael B. Beckwith for sharing this wisdom….

P.S. Our Next Ask Hillary Call is the last week of September – make sure to get your questions in!!!!

Asking for Help Works

Have you found that when you actually ask someone to help you they are happy and you feel better as well? Me too. But, I used to think I had to do it all myself. This is a line from a song that is sung at Agape Int’l. Spiritual Center. It later goes to “I release and I let go”. This song always opens my heart and reminds me that I have to let go and ask for help. Asking for help has been hard for me as a child and as an adult and I had to learn it showed my strength not my weakness.

When I was dealing with the pain of my mother having a nervous breakdown then ending up in the hospital and my house being run by drug dealers. I stole food to eat and we did not ask for help. When I look back at this it makes me sad but I now understand that asking is a strength not a weakness. After my diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis I realized I had to ask for help or I would be in the dark of what to do. This is what lead me to find the yoga class I started and I am so happy I actually asked.

Yoga taught me about the power of the inhale and exhale which is the perfect example of giving and receiving. I am surrounded by people I help and who help me. In my past it was one way. I was the one everyone asked to help them and then there was nothing they could really help me with. At this point I had to take inventory and then let those people go. There is a joy in giving and helping others that just fills my soul. Learning to ask others to help me has filled out the circle of nature that brought me into balance.

So if you are the person who keeps on giving ask yourself how you are taking from yourself. I found that I kept ignoring my feminine side of receiving and it showed up physically in my body. The left side of the body is the feminine (receiving) and right is the masculine (giving) and we have to align them to find balance. Ask yourself and check in your body where you are not living in integrity and how it may be showing up.

Today, I reached out to help a friend with some areas of her water company.  At the end of one call where I was able to offer a bunch of information I was asked, “Hillary, now what can I do for you?”. I paused, then smiled and said,  “You already did by asking me. Then I shared with her how she could help me and she said sure I am happy to do that. This took me some time to get to and sometimes I do forget and ignore it but I am always reminded that there in an inhale and exhale and I must keep the flow going.

Next time you think you have to do it by yourself think of those you help and then ask those who support you for help. Next time you feel alone and afraid to ask for someone to assist you, think again. Next time you ask for help watch how the universe smiles back at you.

Connecting To Your Tribe Heals

This past weekend I was blessed to be surrounded by another one of my lost tribes that I have been waiting to rediscover. I was on retreat lead my friend, brother and mentor Max Simon for his Step up and Lead Retreat. The way business, creativity and healing is blended on this retreat for business is unlike anyone else doing it out there. I have been struggling to run my business, help my fellow tribe members who seek wellness and my life all into one. Max says its possible and after this weekend I know it is.

What really stood out for me is how we gather and connect when we are needing connection. We dove deep to release our challenges around money, did powerful breathing work that opened me to my power, redefined my value, practiced yoga, hiked, played and got down to business and doing it the right way.

This was the first time I was able to experience all that I love together with amazing people. For me I have been feeling disconnected and  found that c “this pain” I am experiencing has brought me closer to realize I am not alone. I am happy to say that I am an Enlightened Entrepreneur and have a routine of how to live my life and live this life that works for me. I am also a recovering perfectionist and have a mission to serve millions to show them how they can be free from becoming a victim to any challenge.

Over this weekend I realized that now I am supported to be more of who I am and help those who are seeking my help. This in turn will let me serve you and then you can serve those you are connecting to. Just think for a moment – we are all energy and energy is made up of particles and these particles are waves. I know this in my soul.

On my personal journey I transformed a rough childhood of living with drug dealers to stealing food to eat to loosing my mother to cancer at 18. My own diagnosis of MS invited me into many tribes. One that could of been a victim but I said no. Instead I chose to start a tribe of my own that 13 years later has grown to those who wish to be more than a diagnosis. I chose to be part of the personal development tribe that led to the Anusara Yoga Tribe. I chose to use my voice and be part of the new thought leader tribe. Are you unconscious or conscious of the tribes you are in?

Who we spend our time with makes all the difference. It has been said that we are the sum of the 5 closest people we spend time with – who are you in this????  The good news is we get to choose, change and reconnect to who we are at our core.

When you find your tribe it will be like coming home again. You may feel awkward since it may be new and let go of those who pull you away from being who you are meant to be. I find when I give to myself and embrace who I am with all my quirkyness I am able to attract the best people on the planet.

So if you are part of my tribe please make sure to sign up on my facebook page and share how you are making your voice be heard!!!!! Become the leader you are meant to be and use your adversity to lift you up to new levels of greatness. I know deep in my bones that the world is hungry for more leaders and there are many lost tribe members just waiting to be led back to who they are meant to be.

And if you are living with disease or know anyone else please share my work with them!!!! You will be helping them find their way back home.

Are You A Partner in Transformation?

Personally, I feel this is one of the best questions I have seen in a while. This question was inspired by a company that moves in the world with great integrity. They are called Beyond Words and this is there new tag line – Partners in Transformation.

I contemplated this tag line and added a few words to transform it into a question. I love inquiry for the very reason that great conversations are started.

Here are a few more: Are you in the conversation you want to be? Do you seek to lift above complaining, blaming, and mediocrity? Are you ready to become a partner for change?

Before I go further I would love to share more about my life before my diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. I am still amazed that I  turned out the way I did.  Yoga and having a spiritual practice assisted me to move beyond the barriers that seemed to be in my way.

I  invite You to share Your story and comments below so we can be Partners in Transformation.

Obstacles are opportunities and sometimes it takes someone else to help us see the light and turn them into gold in order to live a more fulfilling life!!

Early on in my life I was dodging fists from abuse, being raised by drug dealers, stealing food to eat and fighting to survive every day. Life was tough and it’s amazing that I am alive today to talk about it. I was most likely to become a stripper and probably would of been dead before 30. One of the blessings that aided me in my personal transformation was that I had were weekends away with family members who showed me another way of life.  This showed me possibility that l could create a better life and shift the hand I was dealt and create a new life filled with opportunity. When  I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis I used the courage and strength to move from being a victim into a warrior.  I kept up with my conversation of growth and it led me to love to work with others to help them turn their obstacles into blessings.

The conversation of Transformation is a main ingredient in my passion, motivation and mission. I personally want to hear from you to learn how you are a Partner in Transformation.
Leave a comment, continue the conversation or share your story.

Why Does Trust Matter?

Trust is a big part of growing that we tend to forget about.  As a child I did not have many people around me that I could trust. I was hurt by those who loved me again and again. Promises were not kept. Any commitments that were made were never kept. Even the commitment to keeping me safe as a child was not kept.  There was a huge hole in the area of trust that lasted a while causing me a lot of pain.  I felt alone most of the time and never knew when the fallout would come.

Now as an adult I understand that everyone was doing the best they could. But as a child this confused my definition of trust. I had to do a lot of work to rebuild this and still am working on it.  I did not know what real love was and constantly sought it out. There were times I had to steal food to eat – a basic need. This was probably one of the scariest moments in my life to not be able to know where my food was coming from. Most of us as children trust that there will be food on the table. And in time it was taken care of.

You would think a result would be that I could provide for myself pretty well. But I was a bit naïve as an adult in some situations. I gave my trust away and got burned a bit more.  But I kept on staying around the same people and tried to make it work. There was a pattern created in my childhood. One day I just said enough.  I can no longer do this and am done. On that day I made a commitment to myself to trust in myself. I felt powerful and clear.

I remember sharing with a family friend I looked up to like a mother that I wanted to drop my friends. At the time most of them were from the fashion world. She laughed, and said you cannot do that. I said but they don’t keep their word and I am tired of it. She said that is part of friendship. I found this confusing.

From that moment on I let go of those who really did not care about me. They cared that I worked at Prada and that is it. When I left Prada behind they were left behind and I did not have to do a thing. The phone just stopped ringing.

When we focus on trust and the many ways we can build it we begin to heal. Making a commitment to yourself and keeping it is building trust. Making commitments to a friend is building trust. Making a commitment to build the muscle of trust shifts your world.

If you are having trouble trusting yourself, your world and seek some help. I am happy to work with you to reset the connection to the power inside on my monthly coaching call. It is simple. You can make a commitment to yourself and keep it. Ready?
Go to Ask Hillary Now and share what is in your way of trust, commitments and getting better and I will personally coach you through it. If you are feeling aligned and trust yourself then come on the call. You have nothing to loose in trying but you do have to show up to know for yourself.

What some are saying about Hillary and her work:

Hillary’s life is a blessing on this planet. ~ Dr. Joan Bornsyenko

Hillary’s message is never ego-based and always fueled by her belief that you are your wisest teacher.  ~ Raya Meddine, Actress CBS The Young & The Restless

Hillary Rubin’s eyes twinkle…indication of the “light” that lives within her. Every moment with Hillary is rich with wisdom, love and vision. I trust her proven and sincere spiritual commitment to be a perfect guide on the journey of transformational healing. ~ Tina Lifford, Author, Speaker & Actress

Hillary’s story, work and teaching inspires me embrace my personal challenges as opportunities to be a better father, person, actor, and lead an enriching life. ~ Jimmy Jean Louis, Actor – Hero’s